Hey ppl,

Well today was very interesting, i went to an awards thing 4 drama.....ya well it was a lil more than i could handle....my teacher, mr powell, man that man.....he is sumthin else, i love that guy, he says the most inspirational things, he makes u think, and he makes u understand and not take life 4 granted, he loves all of his kids and u feel that, hes got this positive urge bout 'em, he was sayin bye to his seniors 2day, and wow i was thinkin in 2 years thats gonna be me, and im just so sad that this is almost over, it just started, you arnt suppose to not wanna graduate, u wanna finish skewl, but i dont want to. Im gonna miss my lil fish' friends, i love 'em all, im gonna miss a lot of ppl, my frriends don and mike, i love those guys and their goin off to the army and stuff.....i cant handle that....its not fair, i guess i understand y my ex b/f dint wanna git to close to me, b/c its way to hard to say  goodbye, dont take life for granted.....bye....

shmoo

Hey Homies!!

How r yall doin 2day? Im doin 'eh...i had to work today....man u never realize how much ppl drink and eat stuff till u do a drive thru @ a fast food resturant....and ppl KEEP comin!! Jeeperz!  But yea...i had an okay day....we got pizza today for bein office aids...yea....thats  kool.....but  idk peeps......this "guy" that im crushin.....fine that im like totaly and madly in love w/.....he gives such mixed signals....like he honestly doesnt kno if he wants me or doesnt or just wants to keep me on the hook...ppl dont like to wait....specially girls....but thats his choice...its my chocie whether i want to wait or not...rite?.....yea that sux....well you should just "wait" rite? Well its a lot harder than it seems.....idk ppl.....life is just a stress world of shit...'eh? Idk....i guess this is life...rite?....a whole bunch of ppl and bullshit.....wat a great combination....nite

Hey Gang! Well its Wednesday....yea i gotta work tomarra fun stuff. Now i kno how all u "workin" ppl feel. Lol not wantin to go and stuff. Well this has been an interestin year hasnt it? Meet a whole bunch of new ppl and loosin sum friends as well. And then gettin very very close to a person that i never thought that i would. Ive never gotten this close to a person be4....its scary......ppl r so lucky when they find that one person that they love....but the few hand picked ppl that are so fortunate and the ppl who find the ppl that they  love....love them bak.  Sumtimes u just wanna be like okay im here....and so r u.....i kno u feel sumthin y dont u just let urself go? And then other days you dont wanna be a "stalker" or however you want to put it. Its like they're so close but yet so far away. You just want them to kno how you feel. Let them ease drop on you talkin about them to your bestfriend. Or have them just see how u look at them in that awwww look. It kills you inside when they r right there....and you have kno idea how they feel and your wantin to kno so bad....but yet you dont cuz your afraid its gonna be bad knews. You want things to change....but yet you dont. It sounds nutz but its true.....its so scary....but idk....i just want to love someone (that special someone) have have them love me bak just as much. But you cant always have wat you want. Its so weird cuz ive opened up so much this year....and im so open to new things....but im still scared of the one thing that i have always been afaid of .....if anyones got any advice.....im wide open for that....hehe....butg im gonna git...everyone have a great Nite! Beebye

Shmoo